marriage cont.

So here i am recently married,which so many people where against.Many of them giving us 2 years only,but we knew we just clicked together in everyhing we did.No it wasnt exactly a great marriage and 4 months into the marriage  pregnant again. Bryan had to work crappy jobs like washing dogs for shit pay.We lived at my dads house with my sister and her hubby and 3 kids,we did that for bout a year then got our own place.Bryan and i had some big fights,usually with me throwing things at him,bad habit i got out of eventually.
I was a bad wife back then i didnt do alot for him like i should of,and when we had fights we always hit very low blows to really hurt the other.He would tell me he was inlove with someone else,i was very insecure back then so i would fall for it and get hurt alot. I guess i never felt loved enough or wanted,i would put him down for verything he did instead of making eachother feel good we went out of our way to bring each other down.He always wanted me working he didnt feel it was fair for him to be just working.Well i would get a job but always ran into babysitting probs.So i would end up quitting my job but a few months later he would start in about me having a job.We went like this for years and years.
In and out of apartments and living with relatives,but all this time seemed like our families treated us like crap.
I would babysit for them whenever they wanted me to,but if we needed a sitter noone could do it,so in away it was us against the world or families.As im typing this im thikin wow why did we stay married,but truth is when we where close we where so clse we where attached,we loved eachother way too much.Is that possable yeah i think it was we where so afaraid of how bad we could hurt eachother we where trying to do the hurting first.Well it took me 5 years to lose the babyfat from having two girls so close in age,i looked hot smokin body so 1 night in october we went to a b-day paty for my twin sister and brother mike and pat,the people who where having the party had a little blonde hair blue eyed baby boy,bryan was in baby mode after that we had shannon who was a blonde hair blue eyed girl so he wanted a son said thats what our son would look like.But i was not wanting another baby i finally looked good after so many years of being fat,plus didnt want to have another girl after having 2, but end of january he wore me down i said fine we could try in feb but if it didnt happen bye the end of feb we where gonna give it up.the beggining of feb i had my period so he only had 3 weeks to get the job done i was thinking it wasnt gonna happen.Yeah i ws wrong my boobs started hurting right away i swear he got my pregnant the first day we tried.Went to the docs and yepp i was pregnant due in nov,actually on his moms birthday,wow did i get huge with this 1.On november 13 i gave birth to a 9lb 1 1/2 ounce baby boy brown hair and blue eyes taking after me.Well he got his son so i was done no more babies we named him bryan but not a junior we gave him my dads first name as his middle name,and we called him bj for short.No the nic didnot follow him into high school,we made sure of that.
But the good thing happened while i was pregnant with him bryan got a union job that payed good and had real good benefits,so life was looking better.
After living in crappy neighborhoods we now could afford to move to the burbs better schools and safer neighborhoods.Over these years i didnt see alot of time with my brother mike,but my sister got us together at the holidays at least christmas eve every year we took turns.But my relationship with michael was cordial,more like a distant relative,my relationship with bryan was still alot of ups and downs and some big fights always leading to talk of divorce,but never following through.